Less than 10 months to go and I'm panicing about everything; I'm panicing about affording the wedding, affording a honeymoon, keeping everyone entertained and happy at the reception, keeping everyone happy full stop. When did our wedding become about everyone else?! It's our day, yet all we seem to be doing is trying to please everyone else. I tell you, if we didn't have any deposits put down it would be tempting to run off and do it all abroad!
Had a few off days lately. For the first time in years Father's Day really got to me. (Quick history, Nick buggered off when I was 5 & Mum was pregnant with my little sister, havn't seen him since I was about 8, he's now living with his long term partner Paul and little sister got back in contact with him at Christmas time.) We'd been out to see Dave's Dad the day before and as the wedding gets closer I'm missing my Granpa more and more...doesn't seem too much but on top of everything it just made me crack. I've learned to accept, though, that from time to time, I just need to have a cry and it makes everything seem that wee bit brighter at the end of it.
Not going to bring the mood down any further otherwise I'll be a state for Dave when he gets in and I can't be having that!
Nikki
